A Month Past and Life as It is Now

My bestfriend reminded me that it has been exactly a month since I rushed myself to the hospital due to the excruciating pain due to the torn muscles I suffered. 

Just like that. Amonth has passed. 

In this one month, I've been challenged to slow myself down and give myself space to ponder. Coincidently, I had also finished the book that has kept me engaged and encouraged me to reflect on it's personal lessons for me.  Honestly, I do get a bit restless at times, but all in all, I have enjoyed this extended break.

Slowing down has been good because it has helped me be more aware of my own reactions and responses when presented with different things on a daily basis. It has helped me deepen my appreciation of the various encounters I experience too. I tend to walk really fast. In my younger, more athletic days, my preferred mode was to run from one place to another. haha. But I realize that I've been taking my time enjoying the scenery around me as I head to the hospital for my physiotherapy sessions (but still ensuring I am not late). And I chuckled, when I noticed people zooming past me as I ambled on.

As I am trying to ease back to work, I am aware that it is so easy to fall back to the trap of "getting busy" again. But maybe it's a trial and error thing. Most importantly, it is that awareness that could get me back on track - to not overload myself, if that so happens. Anyway, while the searing pain is more manageable now, I do need to pay attention to my body and be more sensitive to my pain threshold. As a person who lives with pain every day, it is hard to gauge when pain is becoming more of a problem. Again, trial and error perhaps?