I have been diagnosed with hyperthyroidism. I suspected it 2 week ago, but only managed to get my blood test done last week. Received my results today.. and it was positive. I have hyperthyroidism - along with my 2nd and 3rd sister.
It sucks. It really does. I had been anticipating it.. But when I got the confirmation today, it hit me like a ton of bricks. It became real. My family doesn't understand why I am upset about it...
but it's my 4th diagnosis. It really does something to my psyche. my 4th.. how many people have 4 diagnoses in their life? why am I still alive? I don't understand how my body is still functioning when i have issues with my brain, my heart and now my thyroid.
I'm grieving because there doesn't seem to be an end to my illness. Please help me, Lord. I don't know what Your plan is.. and i'm really very tired. Why can't i just go home? I would prefer that. but at this point, i'm thinking of Paul saying he would live for Your glory. I don't know how I can use this for Your glory.. but please give me strength..
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