I've noticed that my word recall and memory has been on a decline. My mind literally goes blank on a daily basis as I struggle to form sentences or find words, even more so when I am tired. During those times, my words will be slurred as well. It is more apparent when I am engaging verbal conversations as I will have to think on the spot. My more familiar doctors and friends have highlighted that they've recognized this occurence - the fragmented and choppy thoughts, coupled with my need to take deeper breaths while I speak due to my asthma flare-ups.
It would be a lie if I say this doesn't worry me. My work as a therapist relies on my ability to communicate with others, and that would involve verbal interactions. I require a wide range of vocabulary to aid with the therapeutic process, and hence, I need to multitask. This is something I struggle to do now. Multitasking. My brain has difficulty juggling different things at the same time. Even with one task, it's a battle.
It saddens me but I have to find ways to compensate for this deterioration while grieving for yet another noticeable loss I'm experiencing. I've developed a habit of talking to myself, giving me space to feel my emotions but also to then consider what can I do moving on. It helps so that I do not get stuck in the (overwhelming) negativity, and I attempt to identify solutions.
One of my biggest lessons is to be kind to myself and be compassionate towards me. I know how hard I can be on myself. This helps me from spiralling.
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