Dealing with Decline

 I've noticed that my word recall and memory has been on a decline. My mind literally goes blank on a daily basis as I struggle to form sentences or find words, even more so when I am tired. During those times, my words will be slurred as well. It is more apparent when I am engaging verbal conversations as I will have to think on the spot. My more familiar doctors and friends have highlighted that they've recognized this occurence - the fragmented and choppy thoughts, coupled with my need to take deeper breaths while I speak due to my asthma flare-ups.

It would be a lie if I say this doesn't worry me. My work as a therapist relies on my ability to communicate with others, and that would involve verbal interactions. I require a wide range of vocabulary to aid with the therapeutic process, and hence, I need to multitask. This is something I struggle to do now. Multitasking. My brain has difficulty juggling different things at the same time. Even with one task, it's a battle. 

It saddens me but I have to find ways to compensate for this deterioration while grieving for yet another noticeable loss I'm experiencing. I've developed a habit of talking to myself, giving me space to feel my emotions but also to then consider what can I do moving on. It helps so that I do not get stuck in the (overwhelming) negativity, and I attempt to identify solutions. 

One of my biggest lessons is to be kind to myself and be compassionate towards me. I know how hard I can be on myself. This helps me from spiralling. 

Medical Alert ID (continued)

 I'm glad to share that I have managed to purchase a medical ID after months of searching. I realize that there is a rather poor awareness when it comes to health management in Malaysia. A medical ID tag seems rather unheard of whenever I tried exploring ways to get it made. And my bestfriend wondered whether our local paramedics would recognize the medical ID and what the terms stand for if I were to wear it. I'm choosing to give them the benefit of the doubt that they will. After all, I can only do my part to provide the info needed for them to treat me if I were incapacitated. 

That said, it's important to have a medical ID with us, especially if we are susceptible to symptoms that could cause us to not be able to communicate. I've finally found a company that does a pretty good job. In fact, I was quite impressed because it only took two days for my customized bracelet to be delivered to me. I had made my order on Monday and received it on Wednesday. So if you're interested, feel free to check this website out: http://www.lifeline-id.com/

This is NOT a sponsored message. I'm just hoping to provide a resource in case you are considering a medical ID. So far, Lazada's offerings have not been acceptable.