Listen to your body

I think this message comes through a lot. We really need to listen to our body because it will tell us something is wrong.

So there has been a lot going at home.. and I'll fallen ill - cough, sorethroat, flu.. the works. Haven't been sleeping well cough I'm hacking my lungs out. so even in the day time, i'm exhausted. I can see how this is a vicious cycle because I'm pushing myself to do things and its weakening my already weakened brain and body.

Anyway, i'm currently having this really intense pain on my shoulders, chest and back.. it literally feels like i have this huge weight on my shoulders that I'm bearing. Talk about psychosomatic symptoms. I've been trying to sleep it off, but it still really painful.

I really need to listen to my body. I need to take a break. Like a real one. real soon.

illness and caregiving

Having neuro-fatigue and migraines often makes it hard for me to work. And now, with me trying to do my part as a caregiver for my parents, it is even more challenging. 

It is hard enough trying to manage my own pain and weariness, but I feel the need to push past this struggle in order to do my part as a daughter. I realize my body is taking the brunt of my efforts as I've fallen ill (cough and flu) and it makes me even more exhausted than before. 

I think what's tough is that my condition is invisible, hence I am expected to buck up. What if my condition was evident? To be honest, I think I push myself a whole lot more too because I feel I can't prove that my condition is not all that great. 

I'm just drained right now. It's March and I'm already feeling burned out. Not good. I just wish I had answers but this is my learning curve, i guess.

Praying for wisdom, strength and rest.