So... I've fallen sick again. Just before CNY came, I caught a bug from my sis who was deaf to my instructions to mask despite me badgering her to - she lives with people who are vulnerable to illness and she doesn't seem to think how it could affect others. It's more than a week since I started coughing and I have not recovered.
I've been feeling like crap thanks to the constant coughing which then impacted my weak lungs. I started wheezing and I needed to use my strong Symbicort (that contains steroids) which in turn messed with my menstrual cycle.. also , my sinus started getting blocked causing my face to hurt. I had coughed so much that there were blood in my spittle. Do to my constant coughing, I was barely sleeping causing me to be utterly exhausted, and giving me migraines. There was a point when my heart rate shot up to 117 and I experienced pins and needles in both my hands and fingers.
It made me realize that what's a "simple" cough for my sis turns detrimental for me. What starts from a simple cough really spirals to other issues for me due to my health conditions. I finally went to see the doctor after trying to allow my immune system to take care of it but to no avail. The doctor had to put me on the nebulizer because my lungs weren't clear and she even told me that I should have gone to the ER since I've had some difficulty breathing instead of depending on my inhalers.
It makes me realize how much physical discomfort I tend to tolerate because it has become such a norm for me. Also, she asked if my current symptoms felt as bad as when I was diagnosed with asthma bronchitis in 2021. I found myself not being able to identify if it was as bad. but I decided to say no, because I remember feeling like death back then. Now, I just feel really uncomfortable but I didn't think I was dying.
Anyway, I was given 5 different types of meds to control my asthma, to break down the mucous build up in my ENT, and for my cough and phlegm. I am not coughing as much as before but its still quite cumbersome. I just hope I feel better soon. I've had to cancel work, and I've just been feeling exhausted all the time. January has come and go just like that, and I know this year's resolution was for me to slow down... but I can't help but feel unproductive. God, please help me be gracious and gentle to myself.
